::Appreciation..
1:57 p.m. - 2007-04-19
I've been having the weirdest dreams of late. One of my dreams involved my tuition boy becoming possessed and trying to mess with my head. Another involved a friend of mine bringing myself and a bunch of friends to this really nice place for dinner and we realise he likes the place because the waitresses give free *ahem* service. And he actually ditches all of us for a good 2 hours for some of that service.
Pfft!
On the brighter side, life is really starting to pick up. I'm still confused and there are days that i miss you so crazy i'd have never thought it possible. But i guess everything happens for a reason. I'm out of my rage phase and i'm just going to live and let live.
I wouldn't be able to fall in love the same way, not anytime soon and i'm definitely not going to find a partner as easily as you did. This relationship was not a lie for me,as it may have been for you.
I am just grateful for those beautiful moments,which were aplenty in that relationship. I choose to cherish you for that beautiful person you were and remember you in the good times i will.
Life is way too short as i've come to realise for me to be holding grudges against people. A dear friend lost her father last week and it just struck me again that we are never the masters of our fate.
I'm glad to see her taking it so strongly but being in her house, watching all the rites was so difficult. I did stick through it all because i knew she needed someone with her. Someone who knows. Girl, if you ever read this, i just want you to know that its true that you can never recover from the pain, but it will get better and you will realise so many things. You are one beautiful girl and your family has an amazing amount of strength. I'm sure your father will be proud.
Since i'm at all this optimistic bull*, i should just tell everyone who reads this blog a big thank you. After the "Pesuvom" programme recording, i realised that my blog has gone quite far from where it began and it is thanks to the people who read me that i've gotten such exposure. I know a lot of people who read my blog hate my guts or think i'm some lowlife who has nothing better to do. But for those of you who read me beyond face value and agree with my opinions or at least take something home, i'm grateful.
On the whole, i love you all!
Ok, enough with the sappy shit already!
Ciao!
